During that last post, i sent a msg to my bf saying that i thought it was best that i needed a break.

And yep. He seemed upset. It hurts me to have done it, I realised God has placed him in my life during this period to protect me from entering any unhealthy relationships that could have possibly happened. But..Have I done the right thing?

Its not like im looking for another relationship, not at all. I just want to be able to focus more on God. Or was this an excuse to get rid of a relationship that was dieing down. Im so confused.

Either way, it hurts. I hate to have cry over things that seems so little I guess. haha. My brother is going atm “dont cry! dont worry its just a sad story” Gosh. Hes my little angel at times.

Lord, I think i’ve done the right thing. Or have i not done the right thing?

Or is this one layer that I need to have removed in order to be closer to you?

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Gee. I guess you really dont know what you miss untill you lose it.. Apparently hes started seeing someone already. Wow. Is that meant to be a wake up call for me?

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Feeling much better. Had quiet time with God again.

He let me know, do you see how temporary this “love” was? My love is not like that.

For ages I’ve prayed that I’d figure out Gods love in my heart, and not jus tmy head.

 This is one step closer to that. I love God, and God loves me much more than I can give.

Now I’m excited for What God CAN bring. Lord Thank you for my situation!

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Wow. how many times have i updated this? LOL

Well I called up Ves, and just explained everything. It was a misunderstanding thats why he was upset.

But, i found it so amazing. He understood the reason why, and even more so. He encouraged me to really grow in God, shared to me what God has taught him & even told me a few encouraging verses. Praise God! He gave me someone who was able to understand what I was going thru and what I needed to do.

Thank you God. =]